As I was leading up to my days of my left PAO (periactabular osteotomy), I had this vision of myself and other “hippies” on the PAO Facebook Support group walking into a burning building and coming out o.k., on the “other side.” Its hard to explain, but in a sense its something that I knew I had to do, that it would be extremely difficult and dare I say a painful experience, but I would come out o.k. Walking into that burning building (PAO surgery) was a way to reclaim a sense of myself, to rescue something deep within me. “Rescue what?” you may ask. At this point of being 2-weeks post op, I am still not entirely sure of that answer, but I am sure I will find out as this journey continues.
Today a fellow hippie had her PAO surgery in St. Louis. She is another FB PAO hippie friend, a Physical Therapist in Texas about the same age as me. We have a lot in common, including that we prepped well pre-PAO. I was helping to calm her nerves via messaging and sending her Pusheenicorn healing vibes.
“See you on the other side,” I typed. Its something us hippies say when we are in the final moments of facing our PAO. I thought about how while we are not technically dying and we are in the afterlife, but rather a good metaphor for the death of our old selves and a rebirth begins.
My PAO buddy Jessica and I were messaging around the same time this morning, and she brought up the burning building metaphor (I told her about this a few weeks ago). She described how the burning building (PAO surgery) was burning parts of her old self that no longer serve her and she comes out of the building a different person. She described what I was unable to put into words. Signs abound, we talked about astrology. As one source described:
“This is a time of great and crucial transformation, as the contradictions in our society become even more clearly recognized, dramatically showcasing the urgent need for meaningful change to take place. This very same process is echoed in our individual lives as well, since each one of us represents a microcosm for the whole.” -Astrograph.com
In closing of my musings, I thought of an oldie but goodie favorite song, “Into the Fire” by Sarah Maclachlan. The words further express my sentiments: